Summation


Sharp scents
dust eyes
suicidal weapon in the trenches

I died as sleeping beauty
but woke as an open chest

fill the abandoned with a plot of land
that no man should ever handle
the stitches made of universal strands
that I've commanded

I dream of falling apart so the dreamers can cannibalize what was once peaceful
while our people die in the streets
I find my self worth in a garbage fire
filled with priceless paintings
the wealthy beg for Mercy and mercy she ain't complaining

but if you think I wanted to salvage something, fuck me

I'm as void as uranium atoms
depleted in with empty space


fuck my short attention span
pink stretchers line as letters

Adderall on the collars
bupropion broken etches

I want to die in surgery and the sacrifice is so vibrant
that the wealthy throw up blood and
their lives are soaked in violence
that each of my teeth falling
like buildings stretched in the climate
decays its own ecosystem
and stuffs their bodies with ivory


will he accept it? what if I don't believe in the hands carving?
does my value decrease as I leave my love starved?

all the medication pumped in me
the city screams as a riot
the truth is I don't want to see it
and I don't wanna survive it
but every moment is disappointing
and every second here is a failure
why would I speak in tongues
when the mouth itself presents danger

I find myself cut out like a liar on a deal that wasnt happening
but the bullets were confused and came back out my chest cavity
and angels weren't just heaven
but invested in our evidence
of self and soaked in arrogance
fate was twin eleven's
my eyes were drenched in mercury
that Saturn hadn't captured
the streets were kissed with more than apathy and broken glasses

and every school girl that was once me
with visages on the pavement
peeled it off and shook the asphalt
gravely and spit their names
across the who's who
who would dare to cross them
think nature wouldn't flame them?
they unite in the endless void
and devour the cowardly nations

blasphemy was a landmass
but in itself was just a fraction
the beginning of a worshiprr
transcendent in self and action
that didn't want your filthy empires
your seventh generations
the well spoken vampires
or faiths that better raped us
your rational speak colonialists
sitting trashed and shouting blame
while the fascists try to light a cigarette
on bodies of the nameless

sold and branded by their capitalism
better dead than bought off base
cancer attached glial cells
and bathed in radiation
just remember that I'm coming for you
and baby I ain't no savior
I tasted my last disappointment
and dealt with eating failure

when the sun eclipses on you
and you decay in every statement
you had a chance to save yourself
but you'll rot empty in her basement


Fluster



verse 1

I wanted a love song but instead I got choked to death by a transphobe/his argument of hands gripped on my throat
I died near a set of trees I ran through in the woods

more than a part of me cracked there/ swarming flies lick their fingers around a designer of fear/waiting in the thick of a thought I hear a wolf hungry/ feeding off of doubt and his voice it speaks subtly

(VOD)
why would anyone love you?
your just sexual currency fetishism
for men atoning for sins that are better
than / sexual pleasure successful/ slights lend their attention near you/
an honor eventually sentences you/

broken teeth on the metal/ I'd let your tranny ass die and nobody would catch me/ even if they come look/ ain't nobody gonna miss you/ you're just a fuck now/ if you're dead it's no issue


I wanted a rainstorm/ in its place I got correctively raped just to fake I was "normal"/ She wanted proof that I was manly/ The girl in me screamed at the touch and the terror besat me

I wanted a clear mind/ every time I see mirror I lose sense of perception depression/
can't tell if I've ever consented/ it's messed up/
I want a bridge and bottle of medicine

sometimes I'm desperate to end it
the voice of doubt talking louder and louder my thoughts drowned and they flounder/ my face numb from the powder I feel empowered put the gun in my mouth pull the trigger I'm out of here

I'm so fucking beautiful x4





surgery is transcendence
pop like a balloon a mess
childhood room regression
memories are a weapon
there's seconds here in between us
my lovers of death and presence
sexual anesthetic
mating dance to impress it

laughing like a hyena
transforming of my experience
I've never really connected here
calling foul on my instance

she wants to pry off my limits
suck on my filthy digits
peddle me in the dirt
and the blood is my new religion

and i'mma let it come fuck me
winding up as a lullaby

fuck if I ever sleep again
sandman tucks in my bloody

orgasmic atomic bombs
breaking up several continents
drowning in my environment
wet like a high class prostitute

own my body in wholesale
the first of collected pennies
and i'mma let you spend it
but my bones are owed to the centuries

ripe for a staircase orgy
of money hungry infections
I'm shaking now on the handle
barely holding my breath

savings accounts I'm coming
and saving accounts of evil

way I've made intricate pieces
of Ponzi schemers and thieves

I brush on the window broken
cut myself for the pleasure
wrist is candy coated
lick drips off the open tendon
I bare my praying mantis
Goddexx guide me to discord
love that would make me do it
I know forever that I'm yours


they wanted us
to look away
while we were burned for our love